Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Forgiving someone can be the hardest thing you do, but it's also the best thing you can do. And I know that's so much harder to do than say and it's different for every situation. But really, in the big picture is it worth it to hold a grudge or be unhappy for so long when you could be happy? 

We just need to take a step back and realize what's really important

Thursday, May 22, 2014

All about us by Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran

I haven't laughed that hard in a really long time 

I know I say that a lot but really, it's been so crazy lately 

It felt good to genuinely laugh until it hurt 

It really is time for summer. I'm ready for the adventure Thursdays with Emma 

And being hooligans in the middle of the night with a wooden ladder

No but seriously that car ride was my absolute favorite 

Now I have to actually study for my accuplacer which I have been avoiding because sssstttttrrrrreeeeeesssssss

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Just act like everything is okay they tell me

I always thought that my heart was at stake, so I wrapped it in chains and locked it up. But then something happened and the chains disappeared. And that's when I realized I needed to back away. I had to, because in two months I would find my heart alone. So I cut the strings of our hearts myself so that you could grow yours back faster. Even though mine still feel the sharpness of the scissor's blades. 

His friend told me I did the right thing. And actually thanked me for doing it. So I guess it really needed to be done. But why does that seem to make it worse? I must have been a really terrible person if he thanked me afterwards.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Junior year at it's finest

came home with no one there except my Thai sisters. They had no idea why I had tears streaming but they sat close to me and comforted me saying it's okay over and over. I don't ever want them to leave. 

I should really be more normal for them or else they will go back home thinking all Americans are crazy like me

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Where did all my blogger friends go...?

\\I have the hardest and bestest job 
\\its kind of beautiful how opinionated humans are
\\Awkward bangs...ajdbfkd
\\Parachute crew
\\Bad Lip Readings
\\Spilling containers of water all over the floor at work 
\\My heart still aches when I think about Spider-Man 2 
\\how soon can we get TFIOS midnight tickets??
\\ like seriously where do I get tickets?
\\laughs that could put babies to sleep (not really but you know what I mean) 
\\Can't we rewind to choir tour? California was too beautiful 
\\i am really in love with the conversations I have with my friends late at night. And fitting three people on a twin bed 
\\life without social media (except for blogging) would be rad 
\\lets stop asking questions, especially that question. Because I have no answer

I'm having a hard time understanding why time can't slow down? I get people are hating right now. But soon summer comes, then big decisions, next stop LIFE. 

Deep breathes. 2 weeks and no more tests

Monday, May 5, 2014

"Lets just write our feelings down and then burn them yeah?"

"How about the high school instead? 
BC Calculous?
The world!!!"

"You just gotta sell it!" 
-my new logic to taking test. 

How come end of junior year has to be so UNbelivably crazy? Lets be done with testing already

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Drifting into unconsciousness

There is a lot jammed in my head. I'm feeling more and more pressure building up and I just want to stay under my covers in my sweet scented bed

The feather filled comforters
The chilled side of my pillow refreshing my skin
Hugging the soft pillow tight between my arms and the feeling of safety. 
Letting the weight of my eye lids finally overpower my will. 
As I bury myself deeper and deeper into my blankets I can hear whispers of reassurance as I let myself go and relax my achy muscles.  

Now you can see why I have so many tardies to my first periods

-->I went to an Ingrid Matheson concert and it was truly incredible. Those kind of concerts just touch my soul in the deepest way. All I want to do is run up to Ingrid and thank her. But even then I wouldn't be able to completely express my feelings.   

-->Emma wrote me a letter from Disneyland that was deeper than the ocean floor. I don't think anyone, let alone Emma, knows how much knowing her has changed my happiness